In SoulCollage®, there is a card or two that we create that we just don’t like sometimes. A card that may contain an image that makes us uncomfortable, or we don’t readily embrace its symbolic potential–its relevance anyway. Yet we (rightfully) keep it because we are drawn to the image in some way. For me, it is my “Attention Seeker” card. I make a face when it shows up in a reading to be honest with you. But, I confess that it always has something positive to offer me, usually having something to say about ego, being judge-y, or being too conservative–or all three!
When I first found this image, this woman was part of a group of similarly dressed ladies and I thought, “Wow, I LOVE her! Look at these ladies, go big or go home! She wants to seen with those digs, and she loves the attention.” She was fun and engaging, with a “tonight’s my night” anticipation. Then I put her on a card by herself and she turned into an exaggerated attention seeker–a force of nature–look at me! She changed into something less appealing, unsure.
When I pull this card–like I did today, I think, jeez is this really an aspect of me? I can relate to insecurity, but the needy, drawing attention to myself, I don’t like it on me. Ego. Oops, okay yes it’s there, I see it. Maybe not as over the top as my card portrays, but it’s certainly always there, isn’t it? (Hello, I blog in a public forum hoping people find something useful in what I have to say.)
But for this reading I had my business on my mind and deep down I knew I’d been playing things way too cautious or conservatively, and I wondered, how do I take advantage of “ego” so it works for me and not against me?
So I look to my SoulCollage® deck for guidance in my business, and “The Attention Seeker” blazes a clear path out of my comfort zone:
“I am one who believes in myself, whether you do or not. I go with confidence, I pull out ALL the stops–in the middle of everything: look at me, I’m freakin’ on fire! I need you to be a force of nature like me. I appear in the most over-the-top way because I am one to be seen and definitely not forgotten. Believe in yourself, be seen, be unforgettable.”
I find it to be very good advice for stirring up some business presence. She makes me uncomfortable.
And maybe that’s why I make a face whenever this card shows up in a reading. I know it’s going to challenge my comfortable way of thinking and doing things. So as I work to create a bigger presence and be unforgettable, I wonder, do you have a card in your deck that you’re not crazy about sometimes? How has it helped you?